It seems that my body is always screaming at me. For a long time I ignored it. Now it's very hard to not listen to everything that it keeps saying... Some times it's the same things over & over & over again. Most of the time it's about the pain. Always about the pain... I'm 35 right now, but there's days that I feel like I'm 80. My joint's are pretty 'trashed' after 8 years of gymnastics as a kid. The arthritis has set in really badly in the last few years. My knees & hips seem to be the worst. When I am in a lot of pain or am very tired I have this 'funny' walk as my friends call it. Kinda looks like a penguin walking. Now my hands are starting to get pretty bad too. You never realize just how important your thumbs really are till you can use them. Some of the most simplest tasks can be hard when your damn thumbs don't want to work. Writing with a regular size pen or pencil is difficult. I always have to make sure that I have a "fat" pen in my purse to sign anything or to fill out any paper work. Some part of my body is always in some kind of pain. I have a very high tolerance to pain, so if I'm whining that something hurts it REALLY hurts! Weather seems to effect me more now then ever. I know when a storm is a brewin... The colder it gets the worse I feel. Keeping warm is always a challenge for me. I have worn mittens in the house just to keep my hands warm! Thermal socks are normally found on my feet. Sometimes the pain gets to be so bad & all I want to do is curl up in a ball to cry my eyes out. Not that crying is really going to help, but it's the only thing you can do because everything hurts so badly. I spend a lot of time laying on the couch or in bed because my body hurts. A heating pad has become my best friend. Not only does it help take some of the pain away, but it also keeps me warm.
Some days are better then others... But some days I would love to just have a pain free day!
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